You are indeed confused, dear, but not abnormal! Relax. It doesn't really matter who this is (for talking with an adult). Whoever it is, you really, really aren't in a position to declare your undying love for anybody. You're still figuring out what love is.

That puts you squarely in the middle of normal 15-year-old girls. It's painful; it keeps you up nights; it's a distraction, a bother and a heartache. But you are not the only one. That's another problem. I'm sure you'll want to be the only one who's been down this road, but I assure you that this isn't so.

May I invite you to consider not only these two fine young men (lucky you!) but your Catholic faith--and the love of Jesus Christ. You are loved by more than two--Jesus is watching out for you. Have you asked Jesus in prayer about this? I think you may be on a good track by not asking more people you know--but asking Jesus who knows YOU very well--may be the best guidance yet.  Pray for these young men when they come to mind. Think on Jesus' love for them--and how he wants the best for all of you. Don't think you're going to reach a solution alone.

I wish you well--and I pray for you also. Lay this in divine hands--and let it rest there awhile. Don't take it out too often to examine it again. You'll just be distressed!