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In your situation your anger at God is perfectly understandable; you are frustrated and there is really no one else with whom to be angry. Don't let your self feel guilty over those feelings. the key is to turn all of those feelings over to God.
The Jews were very good, in their prayer, of unleashing all their feelings - good and bad - on God. Just take a look at the Book of Psalms! In taking all their emotions to God they were giving im the opportunity to help them work through them. It is only when we try to hide our feelings from God that we get ourselves in trouble. I would suggest that you pray these words from the 13th Psalm; they have proven quite helpful to me in diffcult circumstances in my life:
"How long, O Lord, will you forget me?
How long will you hide your face?
How long must I bear grief in my soul,
this sorrow in my heart day and night?
How long shall my enemy prevail?
Look at me, answer me, Lord my God!
Give light to my eyes lest I fall asleep in death,
lest my enemy say: 'I have overcome him';
lest my foes rejoice to see my fall."
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